taking a short break from studying...

you know...sometimes i really enjoying sitting there and just figuring out those orgo problems. when i get the problems right, i have this feeling as if i had just conquer the Mt. Everest climbing expedition. the same also apply to physics too... not so much with physiology. i am having some trouble with physiology... sigh. but anyway, i think that feeling is what motivate me to do these things and those feelings give me satisfaction and comfort and security... they tell me that i really understand the problems from inside out and not just at the surface. i like that...

you really need a lot of courage to be able to commit to a relationship... i am really scared of committing myself to serious relationship with the serious someone even though i know that it is good for me. that's what everyone around me says. it is supposed to be good...but i am not sure. once you decide to do it, there comes the responsibility of doing everything right, or at least trying to do everything right... yet, nobody is perfect. everyone sins. i am scared of the responsibilities that i need to hold after the decision. it seems like you need to do so much for it and everything is going to be done for it. it just seems to me that i will lose my "freedom" once i get into it...not that i have too much "freedom" right now. i am basically devoting all my time into studying this semester... i think it is the initial action, that first step across the door, that's really hard to cross, not because the door is too narrow, in fact, the door is wide open... i can't see what's on the other side of the door... well, i guess that i would never know unless i take that step, would i?

anyways...

the CURTAIN's UP.... you gotta come to my room and see it...it looks SO COOL. =)