pei's not feeling well.....could this mean that she's getting sick? feeling drowsy, suffering from headaches, trying to throw up because she felt that was the only way to feel better.... she must be getting sick. mm....first time in msu. need to mark that on the calendar, so she can celebrate this day next year. lol

she shall change this board into a complaint center where she can always come and put down the complaints in her mind... she needs supports from a friend who is so precious to her...but currently this friend is not available. she doubt that this friend will ever be available to her again.... why? well...sadly...sometimes it is kinda hard to balance friendship and love relationship... she misses the time they had shared together...looking at those amazing drawings, chatting about the most philosophical topics, discussing about their views on different subjects (musics, politics, dreams, huamanity, etc)...her mind flows in the imaginary world where she can really be herself. she wonders how this friend is doing...hopefully everything is going well. she vows that she'll never forget about her other friends even if she finds someone she loves. "never," says she, "so that my friends will never feel being left behind." sigh....she needs someone to talk to....other than mom, dad, brother, and roommate... it's so empty.

pei's tired...? is she? there are so many things that need to be done but time is limited... it is running out, and she's still here typing all these nonsense... she wants to play the piano and pour out all the emotions... she did this afternoon... it is addicting...because she felt soooo much better after playing some of the really powerful yet sad musics... she wants to play again...to go back in time and play piano for 3 hours non-stop until her wrist starts to hurt again... sigh...

her sense is telling her to go take a shower once she finished drinking the hot chocolate... it will make you feel a lot better... yes, she should finish drinking this hot chocolate and take a warm shower, maybe that'll make her feel better... maybe? what if it doesn't? oh, whatever... but mom would want you to rest... can't let her worry too much, right? right... can't let anybody worry too much. pei can take care of herself, or at least try to. she's a big girl...