well, i will probably type with lots of typos tonight since i am using a portuguese keyboard.

i am currently in rio right now, sitting in front of the public computer and trying to think... i haven't done much thinking, deep thinking, since i got into medical school. sometimes i feel that i've put a lot of things in my life on hold because of med school. probably good and bad...i guess it depends on how you look at things. good in the sense that i block out things unrelated to school and general daily life activities, bad in the sense that i block out some important relationships or put them aside...and that i stop reflecting...

it's good that i am sitting here alone by myself right now. i had an argument with charlie... because i worry too much for nothing and because i am too harsh and too demanding... he didn't really complain about the latter ones, but i am complaining about those for him. i know that he's trying really hard...and he's conscious about it and...he wants to make changes. nobody is perfect... i don't expect to see changes overnight, but i suppose my verbal and physical actions convey otherwise... all i want really...is just for him to be healthy... and sometimes watching him make me really scared that something bad will happen in the future. see... i worry too much. i don't want to lose him because he's such a great guy... maybe it is the knowledge about the human body that makes me extra sensitive to the things he does. i don't know, but i fear for him... sigh... i just want him to be well and happy...

anyhow... i should tidy up and go back up before everyone freaks out...

g'nite and have a happy new year...

i'll try to update you w/ more exciting stuff later.