this is another one of those rare times in life when my parents, my brother, and I are under the same roof again. one of the reasons is because of dad's health...

we went to vegas together this winter break. it was my 2nd time going to vegas... not a place that i would go by myself or choose by myself. but, i got to spend some time with them...who knows when the next time will be once i start residency? better seize the day now than regret it later.

dad gained some weight after quitting smoking... tobacco free is a plus for many reasons, but the amazing increase in appetite is a bit scary. i have never seen him eating that much before for as long as i remember...and he actually thinks everything tastes good! he used to be an extremely picky eater! i wonder if it is also the psychological knowledge of his own mortality that he now does not complain much of anything...

dad also sleeps a lot. not sure if that is a result of the jet lag or actual fatigue from everything that is on his mind...

i got to meet grace... nice girl. takes care of yee, and yee seems to be very happy to have her around. i realized how expectations are so different for a girlfriend than for a boyfriend from my parents... i feel bad that mine has to go through so many hoops... i understand why from my parents' perspective, but i don't really know how to say to him but the honest truth. i wonder if he is very discouraged from all these years, and i have nothing better to offer... i am not even sure if happiness is the majority part of this relationship for him... there are another 3 years, and I don't even know how things will turn out... it is quite unsettling to know. i think it'll be good if i get married later (if i ever do) than yee does... maybe life will be a bit easier.

and then i remembered the statistics for divorce in a physician.....~1/2...

that's pretty grim...

maybe this is where all of my recent headaches come from... i get satisfaction in what i do, but everything else suffers...

is it possible to have everything?